Thursday, November 23, 2006

The strangest thing happened on Saturday.

All right, here's the setup.

I'm to the point where I have the ability to hear the sound that I'm hearing. I can see it in the fabric of reality, I can feel it coarsing through my viens, moving the very soul of the brandon. I can feel the flow trying desperately to escape. I bust for 30 seconds. And, it's flawless. We're talking, flawless. I've made mention to my "mental clone" before. He had nothing on me. I was dancing without inhibition. A direct medium for my emotion and the music that I heard (which was killer by the way).

But, for some reason I found myself unwilling to dance for more than 30 seconds at a time. There was this guy there that had been dancing for like ten fuckin years that I was better at. He was the "king" of saskatoon and I knew I could school him, but for some reason I was unable to bring myself to show my true talent. I actually intentionally dumbed it down. And he knew, which made it worse. When someone says, "you can dance better than that. You and I both know", and you really do know; something's wrong.

I was trapped in my own mind, and I've figured out why and what I should have done to solve it. This realization came when I met the guy that "dancer X" was chillin with. It was his "dancing buddy"...as Will is mine, he had his. I can't dance without mine, or one to take his place. Though his gloves will never be filled. So, I didn't have my support staff and I crumpled. It sucked. So, I've begun a search for someone of equal talent that's flying solo.

Oh, and one more thing. Should I lose a friend over the woman I love?

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Or maybe?
It has nothing to do with what you should do
and everything to do with what you will.

Shoulda-woulda-coulda's are weak, they only hold so much weight.

TheBrandon said...

Right.

TheBrandon said...
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She said...

Brandon I'm sorry to hear about the dancing revelation. I hope something works out for you.

As for the question of lady love vs. the friend... thats only one you can evaluate. But, if it's any help, you need to take into account why you would lose said friend over said female... is it jealousy or is it an objection to the lady in question? And if your friendship is truly strong and this lady you love is truly worth your admiration, then the chips should fall where they ought. If something is wrong with either, therein lies the problem.

Anonymous said...

YES LOSE A FRIEND!!!

Anonymous said...

Shut up and dance!